Taking a Chip Off My Shoulder

Someone's been nagging me & only my wife & mother get that privilege

At this point it’s only my wife but anyway…

Getting ‘ragged on’ in various youtube comments is not something I take kindly to, call me weird.

I received a gift maybe 20 years ago in that I could see where a person was coming from, with great clarity, if I looked. After a few months I realised that using this gift had pretty dire consequences & so I vowed to myself not to use this gift unless the person specifically asked, which has yet to happen. People don’t want to know, & I try not to look.

Well, partly people don’t want to know & partly people don’t know I have this gift but the effect is the same. I keep silent.

Now, good audience, you may say many things, I shouldn’t have let her get under my skin, I shouldn’t break my vow, I shouldn’t many other things but it’s not just me, the person in question has has been mean to many people & has been blocked on many podcasts. When she directed her emotions towards me the question arose, why?

She posted maybe 40 comments on a recent substack of mine. I asked my wife to read a few, to which my wife replied “she is lonely”. I realised this was true & from then on tried to act towards her with kindness, not that I hadn’t before, but now with more understanding.

So, I was trying to be kind. Brett, who recently started a youtube channel, was kind to her, & she attacked us both.

Ohh, I see a pattern. She’s lonely but attacks anyone who is nice towards her. This is a rare psychological type. She has very strong opinions but try & imagine a world where everyone is like her. Not a pleasant world to live in. So her map, model, whatever, doesn’t work, but still she fights the good fight of what she imagines to be true.

I may regret posting this but my irritation has gotten the better of me. It has been said, never post when drunk & I’ll add, never post when irritated. Fuck it.